I feel like I’ve been stuck inside this “normal” life for too long. I want to get out. I’m stir crazy. I need to…do something, something that satisfies me. I’m tired of pretending, wearing this mask. But I can’t get motivated to do anything. I can’t seem to find the will. I am being held back by the mundane drudgery of every day, work-a-day life. Every day is the same. Wake up, shower, get dressed, go to work, come home, have a drink, take care of children that do not seem to have the capacity to listen, go to bed. Lather, rinse, repeat. There is no excitement. It is all boring.